Give life a SHOT

mind speaks

2010-08-06T11:59:00.000-07:00

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"

People that you will meet in life

2009-03-11T11:19:00.001-07:00

There are 4 people tht you will meet in your life.

no 1: Someone who loves you with all their heart but you only know how to appreciate them when you already lose them.

no 2: Someone tht you love with all your heart but you get nothing in return(due to no 1, karma does exist)

no 3: You and that particular person love each other so much but the two of you are not meant to be together

no 4: Someone who doesn't love you with all their heart, but somehow they still love you; and same goes to you but in the end; this person will always be right by your side no matter wht happens; because the two of you understands each other, and remain together until the end because this two lovebirds complete each other.

No 4 is the person you're going to marry.

life's like this

2009-03-11T10:57:00.001-07:00

Past is past. There is no turning back, there's just no point wanting someone who doesn't want you back. At least I learnt my lesson and now, I'M LIVING MY OWN LIFE. Thanks a lot to mybeautiful bitches for keeping me alive until now :)

Terengganu

2009-02-23T08:31:00.000-08:00

Been away for 3 days and I' m fucking exhausted

Hahn's 18

2009-02-19T22:01:00.000-08:00

Finally Hahn turns 18 and she is finally legallized by the Malaysian government. Wooohooo!
Slept over at Pijot's place the day before her bday and we made her cupcakes. After about 2 years we haven't seen each other, mmg bila dah jumpa mulut semua org suddenly tkleh nak stop from bercakap, specially Hahn. She brought her boyf as well and we went to karaoke, melalak mcm org gila and went shopping, and of course - remembering all the times that we had before and talked about it all over and over again! We might not have done so many things since we spent 3 hrs dlm karaoke, but still yesterday is one of the best day in my life, probably because I miss Hahn so very much and how I wish she lives somewhere around me because we used to be bestfriends before; and now we've been friends for almost 6 years. Thank you bestfriends ;)

Birthday girl is in the middle :P

Atie, Hahn and Pie ;)

25 random things

2009-02-15T07:45:00.000-08:00

1. Sorry but I'm a person who talks without even thinking sometimes

2. I am easily annoyed

3. I used to bite my own nails but nw I'm glad that I dont bite them anymore hehe

4. I have a hard time approving someone. And when I say by approving someone, means I don't approve and deny either people at Facebook and Myspace

5. I used to work as a Sales Assistant before for a month and I quit the job because I want to continue to my basic normal life plus I can only go out during nights when I was still working and I'm just sick of being fake to the customers

6. I don't trust people easily

7. When I say I'm in love or I love you, I really meant it because I hardly fall in love

8. I miss school - just because I miss being with my girls almost everyday

9. I've always wanted to be a stewardess but I AM SO FUCKING TALL ENOUGH to be one. haha

10. When I am not in the mood, I tend to keep my mouth shut because I might say things that I am not supposed to say

11. I cheated on my previous boyfriend before and he knew about it when I was still with him and he dumped me 4 days before our very 1 year anniversary and I regretted myself for being so selfish at that time but I believe ALLAH is fair, I found someone else 2 years later after I promised myself not to fall in love and I lost my bet on Lynn because of him

12. Sometimes I wish I am the only child

13. And I'm glad I am not the only child because I still refer to them(sisters and brothers) no matter how sucks they can be at times

14. Sometimes I wish I am still single

15. And I'm thankful that I'm not single because Sharil is always there at my ups and downs. We might have argued over small matters but I don't care wht you say- simply because he's not just a boyfriend to me - but my lover and my bestfriend as well. And yes, because I'm in love with him as well

16. Pijot is my bestest friend ever, though we might not be in the same lane at times but she's been through with me for 6 years now. So, you mess with her, you mess with me

17. I am not a bisexual, neither lesbian

18. I have an obsession over chocolates

19. I am small, and when I say SMALL, I meant it. My weight, from 38 kg to 40kg. My wrist's size is 24, and my shoes size is 4/5. But I am strong enough to bite your dick

20. I don't keep my feelings - I always let them out with different people (ONLY WITH THE ONES THAT I TRUST)

21. You can say that I am corrupted, though I am not that corrupted but as a human being, I am not perfect and so you are. I'm trying to be a better person each day, and if you didn't see the sacrifices that I made before, I'm sorry that you're blind

22. I am an egoistic person

23. You don't want to know how will I react when I'm having my PMS

24. I tend to do crazy things when I get mad

25. I dont tag people in this note :)

Happy Valentine's Day!

2009-02-13T08:13:00.000-08:00

To everyone of you. Yes I mean every single one of you. And doesn't mean you're single - you're not able to celebrate Valentine's at all which is untrue. Valentine might be a special day for couples all over the world to celebrate it - just for the sake of celebrating it and NOT the day for you to show your love. Err like excuse me, I just don't get it when some parties say that Valentine is the day for you to show your love and blablabla. Which is not. If that's what Valentine is all about, then I agree the phrase - Everyday is Valentine. Valentine is the day to celebrate your love, not just for couples or those who are in love, but for everyone in this world who deserved to be loved and to love as well :)

SHARIL? He's my sweetheart, my lover and my bestfriend.
He's been through my ups and downs(ever since we were friends actually)
All I can say is - I am thankful for what I have now
and and and
I know I can be very emotional or probably sentimental at times, but yeah no one's perfect anyway so I'll make this one fast - I love him, so very much indeed eventhough I might not be good at showing my love sometimes.

Sorry I'm in the cheesy mood HEHE :P

And I celebrated this year's Valentine with my lovers - Sharil, Shamirah and Zatie! <3

Qila, Zatie and I

I seriously have no idea what Ed is tryinna do with Sharil's hair -___-

My so-called lesbian partner ;P

It had happened

2009-02-08T05:04:00.001-08:00

Do not bring up about yesterday's issue. It was fucked up and I've got nothing else left to say. Everything is fine now, and yes, breaking up is not the only solution. Thank you :)

Mood: accomplished
Reason: bought new Levi's jeans and flats! ;D

starting to pokai

2009-02-05T02:17:00.000-08:00

OU for a boxer, new legging and catching up with the girls and my boy as well :)

Muhammad Sharil Abdullah :)

FINALLY

2009-01-31T21:38:00.000-08:00

I'm done with work and back to the normal basic life. Went to movie last night with boyf and his usual friends to watch Underworld. Uhh, I just miss hanging out with my girlfriends. Sometimes I wish I am still in school though I hate school very much - just because I love being surrounded by them. And now, things change. I just miss the fact that we've been gossiping every single day and laughed as if there is no tomorrow, hanging out after school dgn menghimpit kereta Myvi abg Intan. Haihh rindu la sialll.

I MISS THIS ;(

Oh and yeah - talking about the girls, during my off day on the 26th, I finally went out with them after dh berapa lama tk jumpa coz Pah turun sini. Tumpang happy dgn Shamirah coz finally dia dpt SLR yg dah lama dia inginkan. Agaga. Lynn and I bought the same bikini haha and I'm still waiting for the pictures from Shamirah's SLR hehe :)

OFF DAY

2009-01-14T07:38:00.001-08:00

My off day? WEDNESDAY! Hehe :D

Woke up at 11 something then fell asleep semula kul 12 cmtu then Shamirah kejut at 3 and got a text from Shl bgtau they're otw to my hse.

Guess what? We went to PD!

Reached PD at 6 something and we headed to The Regency and the first thing that we catched there - Syapek's mom lasagna and and the scene of course!

SEDAPPP SIAL. SUMPAH TAK TIPU. HAHA

Thanks to Shamirah for taking the picture above ;)

And here are some other pics:

Thanks love ;)

My crazy girlf

8 something - Shamirah and I went to the toilet to change our clothes. Sampai di sana, tiba2 ade sorg minah ni dtg kat kitorg before kitorg sempat pun nak tutup pintu toilet. Her name is Adlin if I'm not mistaken.

Adlin : Are u guys Malay?

Us : Yeah, why?

Adlin : I need your help pls.

Ceritanya begini : She went there with her boyf but she told her mom she's with her friend named Amira and that Amira has a husband and her husband went outstation so she wanted one of us to pretend to be Amira.

Shamirah : Coincidencely my name is Amirah too so okay la (and blablabla)

Adlin : Oh really? Ala but your voice tk mcm Amira sgt. Your voice ade sikit kot mcm Amira(while pointing at me)

Shamirah : Ha ah dia boleh kot. Suara i mcm jantan dlm fone.

(dalam hati aku : sengal punya pompuan. haha)

So I was the one who pretended myself as Amira.

Random gila isn't it?

After that, we went off to maple kat PD and sumpah aku ckp kau mknn kat situ tk sedap. I forgot whats the name of the stall. End up Amin yg habiskan mknn aku. Haha.

Rock and Sharil pulak crack mcm babi sial. Haiya.

Selepas mkn, kami pun blk and now ; here I am looking at the screen and the keyboard as well ;)

busy days I had

2009-01-12T08:16:00.000-08:00

Gosh - what more can I say about my life now? Ever since I started to work, I realized today is my first time reading the newspaper. Dammit - I realized I just dont hv time to do such things these days. Tgk tv pun dah tk selalu now. Haiya.

3 days back - lepaking with Shamirah and Lynn setelah berapa lama tidak lepak dgn mereka specially Lynn. I miss those times that we had before - satu geng pergi lepak mkn after school, bantai naik satu kereta himpit ramai2 and do crazy things at school. Sumpah rinduuu. Now, nk lepak dgn diorg pun susah coz some of 'em cant go out at night - and the only time I can go out is at night - tu pun if dpt shift morning. I miss all of them -Pijot, Shamirah, Lynn, Nono, Ruiyya, Pah, Zatie, Intan.

The next day after that went to Curve with Dibah and met my boy there and we went to movie. If I'm not mistaken, Day Wait is the movie yg ktorg tgk. Babi bodoh sial cerita tu. And budak kecik tu gila like whatever(bak kata Sharil) sumpah tk reti berlakon. Baik kasi aku je yg berlakon. Aha.

Anyway, I love Muhammad Sharil Abdullah so much and and
I miss Apek and Kak Intan ;(

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

On New Year's Eve:
10 am -work starts
6.30 pm - work ends
6.45 - at home, mandi tanpa rehat selepas bekerja
7.00 pm - Shamirah came to my hse
until 8 pm - talk2 and siap2 :)
8 something - Arep's myvi di depan rumah dan blah to Curve
9 something - mcm org gila carik pot nk mkn and lepak. full gila babi
10 something kot - dpt pot
11 something - naik rooftop
12 something - there goes the FIREWORKS!

2.30am - supposedly went back home, but Fariz drive mcm org gila so terlajak gi BJ
3.45am - I finally reached home :)

I had fun last night and thnks to those who were there with me, specially Shl and Shamirah for last night. Though penat sikit sbb kena kerja before tht, but I still had fun. Have an enjoyable New Year, may Allah bless all of us ;D

And oh yeah, happy birthday Mak :D

Today, 2nd of Jan - shift aku full time.
Here are some conversations that I catched while working-

Bini : Syg, kita beli yg ni eh? (yg ni tu refers to the tempat gantung barang hiasan kat mirror kereta tu)
Suami : Eeee yg tu? Taknak la! Awak nak letak bunga2 pulak dlm kereta saya eh?
Bini : Ala bangg. beli la bang. Lawa ni (buat muka sedih)
Suami : Saya kata saya taknak, taknak la. Awak nak, beli letak dlm kereta awak sendiri.
Si suami blah dari kedai dan si isteri mengekorinya sambil buat muka sedih. Kasihan.

Makcik India : Is there any dresses at RM20?
Aku : (gulp) RM 20? No. We only have at RM50 and above.
(dalam hati: there's no such thing - ehh ade rupanya dress at RM20!)
Makcik India : Oh really? How much is this one?(sambil tunjuk kat amende tah aku lupa)
Aku : RM 100 bla bla bla.
Makcik India : What? So ridiculous la the price! (sambil keluar dari kedai)
*asshole punya makcik India.
Sorry but do you even know what life means? Uhhh.

Merry Xmas and Pah's leaving to Sarawak

2008-12-26T09:45:00.000-08:00

Since I've been busy with my work and my life- so yeah, Merry Xmas though it was 2 days ago. Hehe. Today is my 4th day working. Kaki sakit but tak penat mana.

Working can be easy, and can be the other way round. Work has taught me on how to:
- improve my smile
- communicate much better
- be patient(paling penting)
- be on time
- BE INDEPENDENT
and loads more

Some says work is tiring, but it is not to me. All I can say is, I'll miss this job and the people yg telah byk membantu saya melalui experience mereka apabila saya resign nnt :)

Oh and talking about yesterday, right after I finished my shift at 10pm, Sharil drove us off to Pah's place in Puchong. Arep followed us too. Sesat kot kat situ. For about almost an hour.
So yeah, yesterday was the last time aku jumpa Pah before she's leaving to Sarawak for NS.
Anyways, I'm gonna miss you bitch and you knw tht too much :)

Working days

2008-12-24T04:32:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first time working. Tiring but tkde la penat gila. Right after that sempat pulak lepak rasta with the boyf and his friends. Hehe. Today, my 2nd day working :)
Dah tk larat nak tulis. Chow

PENAT

2008-12-18T10:21:00.001-08:00

16TH OF DEC - Sri Aman's Prom Night
Performances - just okay
Dance floor and lighting - layan :D
Foods and beverages - BEST! :D
Surprise of the day - Prom crashers(you guys know who you are), i love you people haha

AFter party(wasn't organized by the prom commitee but our own after party)
- terlalu byk utk diceritakan.
I enjoyed my night. That's all you need to know ;)

18TH OF DEC
- woke up at 12 something
- called Lynn but she didnt asnwered and decided to call her back after I got her text
- breakfast, or probably brunch at KJ with Dibah
- Lynn called me up and said she's otw to my hse and Nono's but I wasn't home yet
- so they went to Pyramid(again?!) Haiya
- I had a boring evening! Sumpah mati kutu ptg tu
- fell asleep, terjaga at 6pm coz my aunty came so we went to my cousin's hse. Kat KJ
- Qila called me up - supposedly gerak AC
- I didn't make it to AC
- Most of my girls went there
- Shl came to pick me up at 8 something(almost 9)
- Arep, Syapek and Imran came along
- went to OU
- YES MAN is the movie that we watched
- Okay, cite tu sumpah worth it tgk :D
- spent the rest of our nights at Uptown and now, here I am :)

Happy Birthday Khairul of Ruiyya, haha :P

2008-12-10T07:27:00.001-08:00

Yes as you can see from the title, today is Khairul's birthday. Just got back from Pyramid. Went there with the girls - Shamirah, Pah, Lynn, Ruiyya and Aqila. Met Shl there and some other S.A boys. Finally I bought myself high heels for prom. Heeee :D

Tell you what? I am completely in love with that boy sitting next to me. I love you Shl <3
Thnks for making me YOURS :)

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha

2008-12-08T06:05:00.000-08:00

Celebrating raya at Kuala Lumpur or PJ is always boring :(

6th December 2008

2008-12-07T07:04:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was Shamirah's 17th birthday and what more can I say? This smiley tells you everything :D

Aww and I'll let the pictures do the talking ;)

Shamirah, Me, Lynn and Roy

Haha Arep Arep!

Birthday girl and I :)

Nori and Aqilla Vanilla

Pah and Ronem

Shamirah and Fami. What do you get? Famirah! How sweeeeeettt :P

Khairul and Ruiyya, or better known as Khairuiyya haha

Sharil and I :)

Nori and Lynnot

p/s to Lynn: If you read this, remember - you still have us and we know that we had our times that night don't we? :D

I love you bitches ;D

2 days stories

2008-12-01T05:54:00.000-08:00

291108 - Pool party at Lynn's place! Supposedly the party started at 4 but most of them came at round 4.30 but what most important is, WE HAD FUN! It was also supposed to be so-called "Mimi and Pah's surprise" but Pah didn't show up. Lynn bought 2 pieces of cakes for Mimi and we sang her happy bday. And again, she was shocked. Seperti biasa la kan minah gila tu, bila terkejut aku punya peha jadik mangsa. Ntah berapa kali dia gi tepuk. Adoi la kwn aku sekor tu kan. Some of Qila's friend had to go back early- like Mirawey, Lyen, Luke and Sara. At 8pm- Nori showed up and Qila sumpah tak cover and ktorg turun bawah and there goes the DISCO AIR! Haha. Sumpah layan and ntah mcm mane, Mimi came out with the idea that we should be throwing more DISCO AIR PARTY next time. Hehe and thnks Mimi for the idea. But then, Lynn tak join ktorg because she wasn't well and I talked to her about something, and yeah I felt relieved that I actually said what I need to say to her, and I hope you mark my words my dearest Lynn. The Disco Air was celebrated by us - Mimi, Qila, Nina, Hadi and I while Lynn watched us jadik gila kat dlm pool. Haha. Right after that, we headed off to Pyramid to shisha and OMFG, mamat Arab yg amik order tu babi handsome sial! Gahh. At 12.30am Hadi drove our nights off.

And here are some of the pictures :

301108- Arep and Shl came to pick me and Mimi up at around 2.30 and we went to OU to watch Twilight. What more can I say? I regretted myself for watching it. Serious shit. The movie, which was supposed to be sweet, turned out to be cerita jiwang mane tah. Omfg sumpah bosan and byk kali kot tertido while watching it. The four of us ended up window shopping and lepak-ing at BK and had our crazy moments there. Dgn black magic from Shl and Arep, stupid manipulative jokes that we had and yeah, we still had fun though. 8.30- Arep drove us home. Terima kasih Shl, Mimi dan Arep kerana berjaya menceriakan hari saya :)

271108

2008-11-28T04:28:00.000-08:00

271108, SPM ends and real freedom begins! :D
Hell yeah, I'm now a school leaver. Now its time to partayyy baby. Hehe.
Our last paper, EST starts at 11.40 and ends at 3.15 but at around 4pm, the girls- Mimi, Lynn, Pah and Nono followed me back home.
From my house, we went off to KLCC at around 4.30, then celebrated our freedom at The Apartment, KLCC.
MIMI WAS FUCK UP HIGH! HAHAHA. We enjoyed ourselves there, gelak mcm org gila(simply because ktorg dah tkde ilmu nak keluar dah, sbb semua ilmu sudah dikeluarkan pun) hehe okay aku merepek sial :P

So yeahh, stuck kat KLCC mcm agak lama sbb hujan punya pasal. Around 8 cmtu, we decided to redah the hujan and again- Mimi almost nak kena mampos langgar dgn bus. Aku sndri pun tatau la ape masalah minah tu mlm tu, gila semcm kan. Haha. We went to Sg Wang and bought some stuffs. And yeah, I bought myself a mini skirt. Okay murah gak ah tp depan dia mcm jinjang skit, lol :P

We were supposed to shisha at Carlos, but unfortunately one of the friendly workers there said that we're still underage and we do look like underagers! Ouchh. Dgn rasa kecewa di hati, kami pun blah dari situ and we headed off to Lecka-Lecka and again, kena redah hujan! I think the whole night ktorg mmg redah hujan pun la. Cam sial kan. Hooked up with Efan for about 10 mins then dia kena blah pergi kerja then Sharil, Arep and Famy came along at around 10 I think? Pastu Pah, Lynn and Nono kena blah awal so 5 of us je yg tinggal- Mimi, Shl, Arep, Famy and I.
11 something- Shl drove us off to Mcd Subang. So we talked and talked and talked about crazy stuffs and again, Shl sent us home at around 1.

I think no words can actually described one of our happiest moments, but yeah I had fun though. To those people mentioned above, thank you so much. You guys made my day :)